Today-

Divertingly, I read Angela Carter's "The Bloody Chamber"... The delightfulness of the story is soaking in and I now have to *sniff* enter reality and actually mark things off my "to-do" list.

One of the "things to do" is send emails... I am going to attempt to respond regularly.
Wish me luck!

Okay, new, less sad post!

Today, after the whole laundry thing, I ate a bowl of popcorn, drank some earl grey and watched the ever so funny Ellen. ( I love her! She'll cheer any person up... :))

Then I took a walk. I usually walk about 2 streets over to the more neighborhoody/less busy part. I walk mostly around three of my favorite streets; Grove, Hanover, Floyd and zig zag through all the connecting streets in between. Sooooo joyous. I day dream about living in one of the fancy houses and discreetly peek in windows looking as paintings, kitty cats, furniture...sometimes you can catch a glimpse of the owners living there like today I saw someone sitting in a comfy chair reading the newspaper while his son practiced piano. I also love seeing all the possible garden spots and imagine all the front stoop planters filled with spring blossoms. All the homeyness. Clean clothes smells, bicycle bells, dogs being walked. It's great.

It reminds of the days I sat in the Pegram's home waiting for my piano lesson and smelling cooking smells (sometimes even watching Mr. P cook) while the sun was setting, piano music in the background.


Then I get to the part of Floyd where VCU buildings start appearing. Oh look, it's the Dance & Choreography building. (It's so close- why don't I just go in?!) I walk back and forth in front looking in the windows a couple of times- wishing I was bathed and the offices were open... Then as I was passing the very next building I noticed out of the corner of my eye..... a marley floor! I peek into a building's basement to see A MARLEY FLOOR, 2 PIANOS, and PERCUSSION SET UP. I look in for a bit longer... smiling and envisioning my bare feet becoming calloused on that floor! Why! It's right next to the dance offices... why didn't I notice that before? How silly. I walk around to the front and bam! a sign labeled VCU dance studios! hehehehe! Two floors of dance studios...I hear music from a top floor. :) And standing in front of that building- I can SEE my apartment! It's on the same street!

I was so happy to see that environment. Unexpectedly, it made me glow. I really am attached and meant for that world somehow. I smiled and almost skipped all the way home.

Tomorrow, I WILL go to VCU. I WILL dance again!

The laundry, my friends, is finished.

Doing laundry tends to be a time of self reflection for me whether I want it to be or not.

The nice weather and lovely porch with chairs makes this time of reflection more welcoming.
Although, laundry day never brought me any epiphanies here are the thoughts from today.

I'm not crazy about winter. Past Christmas it's just day after day of peeling myself out of bed. This winter it's much worse (for obvious reasons). The winters blues must be one of the lovely things I inherited from Mom. (no hard feelings, mom...just blame grandma.)

Sitting outside waiting for my clothes to dry, I watch people pass silently guessing where they might be going (work, school, home?). Some people where wearing sandals... I officially have spring fever. I have been day dreaming of bare feet, tank tops and open windows for a while now.
Not to mention the 2 hour drive to sandy beaches I have yet to explore.



So this mix of spring fever and winter blues has left me feeling in between. Just in between.

I feel naked or exposed. Not just naked to the skin but naked to my bones. I feel myself as a walking skeleton. I have left my substance back in Cookeville. I am without the flesh I have always know and what is this part if me that is left? What have I brought to Virginia with me?
Why haven't I gone to VCU and applied?
Why am I working for next to nothing at a camp?
Why does it take a loud crash to get me out of bed in the morning?
Why is "ranking friends" on myspace so ridiculous to me? (I don't want to do it.)

What have I done with me?

If anyone finds me back in Cookeville...send me this way, please. I need me.

Bleh! on winter so gloomy. I am ready for sunshine!

Also...any know of any good music I should listen to? I am itching for new music.

Peace!

Hello!

Today.
Today was a lazy day!
I cleaned (sort of).
Ate yummy in my tummy hot oat bran cereal.
Pet Blooty.
Read Get Fuzzy comics on the web and laughed out loud with joy and happiness! (no one can tell me it's not funny if I am alone! :) hehehehe)
I printed off my faves of them.
Sent post cards and mailed a bill. (When I heard the mail slot open I dashed through the house grabbed the addressed mail to send and opened the door to greet the mail person gasping for my breath and handed her the mail. She was super friendly as most post people in my experience are.)
Drank lots of tea.
Thought about riding my bike like I did yesterday. Instead I swept the living room.
Tied all my pointe shoes together and hung them up.
Baked sweet potatoes.
Made mix CD's
Uploaded Flickr pictures.

Fun times.
Sooo lazy.

This is me...

... last night perched on a stool in front of my art table finishing a painting.

It has been getting cold as diddalee-doo here at night. So even when inside I am wearing a hat.

Tonight it's pinto beans and corn bread for some warm comfort food and maybe a movie.

Right now I am sipping orange spiced tea ~ water heated by our brand-spankin' new tea kettle. (whistles quite nicely)

The smell of my new bathroom soap reminds me of my Grandmother. It's a nice scent~ not grandmotherly in a bad way.

I was all smiles today after receiving love notes sent in the mail from dance students back home. :) Happiness.

The End

Here I am!!!

Things on my mind:

Today I discovered JOY in round-abouts!
Usually I feel scared. I have come along way because today I whirled around three times as I was traveling places! OH WONDROUS ROUND-ABOUTS! They should have you in every town.

Early this morning around 5 am I awoke to really loud 1970's easy rock. O lord! Where was is coming from!? I know that song but why is is SO LOUD!!!!?? Was it the TV- did the TV just spontaneously turn itself on? Is is coming form outside? If it is I don't hear a car and it's going by much too slowly. *Nudge Trey* Do you hear that? Where is it coming from...? Apparently too sleepy to REALLY find out we looked around the room confused checked the TV and then it softened. It must have been coming from outside the window! OMG! Why?

Weird.

Cooold.

It's gone.

Fall back to sleep.

Then up at the usual time- I took Trey to work and on my way back decide to explore along the way. I spotted a cute coffee shop I'd been wanting to stop in so, parallel parked (I am getting lots of practice these days.) and prepared to be caffinated. I opened the door of my car to hear the same music that awakened me at five in the morning! There was a guy sitting at a bus stop a few feet away from where I parked carrying an old silver radio with a strap blasting that same music!!!!!! I could not believe it! How odd that I be there at that moment being the person who lived in the apartment that was disturbed by that very music, blasted by that very person only a few feet away!! Umph! I discreetly glared as I beelined for my morning latte... and that's just the beginning of my day. :)

What fun.

More later.

I'm here and well hope you are all well too!

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